Something that mite help!

There is a song that i used to lsn to on Nile FM...da minute i hear...it jst makes me happy!it has mainly nothing to do with da lyrics...i guess more with da singer's voice and da music itself...Lucky me...each time i was depressed and on my way2 sumwhere...this song jst popped and started playing in da radio....for AGES i cudnt figure out was was da name of da song or who actually sings it....but at da end...i got it!
now i lsn to it whenever i am down....it still has da same effect....
maybe u wud be interested to download it and think abt wat i say...it mite be a help for u too...or jst ask me da nxt time u see to lsn to it....i have it on my ipod!

ATHLETE LYRICS
"Half Light"
The sun got stuck, as it's making it's way back down,
We find ourselves, in a familiar part of town
And all that I've seen means nothing to me without you
So when I see you next we'll make the most of it,
Tell the sun to start moving again,
The taste of your kiss I still got on my lips,
And ill take you there with me
Head crashed down, air conditioned myself to sleep,
The great night out, that will continue to the end of the week
And all that I've seen means nothing to me without you
So when I see you next we'll make the most of it
,Tell the sun to start moving again,
The taste of your kiss I still got on my lips,
And ill take you there with me
It's you and me connected to a satellite
It's you and me love through a machine
It's you and me connected to a satellite
It's you and me love through a machine
So when I see you next we'll make the most of it,
Tell the sun to start moving again,
The taste of your kiss I still got on my lips,
And ill take you there with me

Blogname....Changed!

Well yeah i changed my blog name....i find this blogname more...related to me!cuz i am not out of mind for only 5 min...i am planning to stay out of mind my for longer than that...cuz as u can read it on my blog name:"I AM ENJOYING EVERY SECOND OF IT!"
I mite not be as crazy as alot of other ppl i met thru my life...but i still consider myself a person who has this kind of crazy and insanity genes!...well after all this post is abt nothing important...hehe

The egyptian TRAFFIC

......On my way....from Maadi to Mohandessin....after da biology private lesson....i finished da lesson at 5...and i arrived 7.15 home!
it was da worst day of my life....egyptian traffic is getting from bad to worse....i jst cant stand it anymore...i want to try to count during da next week or so...hw many hours do i spend in da car....if we're taling abt this day....then is was definitly all in all a sum of 3 hours and 45 min!WHY!this is all because of the combination of el 3id and the new year together....oh god i was almost crying in da car....
plus all this i was like jst sitting thnking....if i am that fed up of da traffic and i shud be driving in a couple of months...hw angry will i be as a driver???.....i'm thinking actually to jst forget abt driving for da time being....
bad news is....more cars are coming in da streets....we hear/see and talk abt nothing but da new cars and da new ads of cars....and i heared at least 2 of da new cars are all taken...ppl payed already da downpayment b4 they arrive to our country aslan....and so we expect AT LEAST hundreds if not thousands of new cars(beside da old ones of course!) in da egyptian streets soon!
Although i am not really a huge fan of herr Schroeder...but he always says that it will come to a point soon when the traffic in egypt will jst stop and never move again...well this is coming definitly SOOOOOOON!
P.S.: well i guess nadia is pretty happy with da traffic...she has more to think abt and more to write on her blog "thoughts on wheels"!hehe

Three down....ONE to go!

So i look back like a year ago...and i certainly cant believe da stage dat i am in right nw!
11te klasse is jst over and 12.1 too!its a schock hw i only have only one more term left and i will be isa then with all this!
i got sick and tired of it all to be honest!although 12.1 was much more smoother for me than 11.1 but still...nah i jst cant take da idea of being in this skool anymore!
it weired hw dramatically a person can change in less than 2 years...up untill 10.te klasse i admired nothing as much as i admired skool...and right now it s da reason for my misery!
oh god i jst want it all to end!

Thanks for da depression...but i dont need it right now!

I got REALLY surprised lately of da no. of ppl who tend to be depressin and pessimistic...its incearsing in a way i cant even imagine!
i just hav a feeling that they enjoy spreading a bad spirit in da whole place..
honestly...i got sick and tired of this!
u can jst keep it to urselves guys...and let the rest live happily ever after!
well i dont have anything else to say abt that!
may god all pessimistic ppl!
no further comments!

I have to update my blog...I have to update my blog...I have to update my blog...

These were exactly my thoughts when i saw geegz's comment on da last post i uploaded on my blog...right afterwards i decided wat i was gonna do...i'm gonna sleep!:D
well now i am up again...i stayed wonderin again abt wat shud i write...nothing actually happened that interesting in da last while...we had only exams...and i only studied all da time!
da last exam that is now left to me to study for is da least important subject for me...which is Chemistry!i just HATE it....2 of my bestfrnds actually adore this subject...but this never seemed enough to convince me to even try...
i was actually once good...and i used to get average grades....but ever since last year...things changed dramaticlly in a way i never thought wud happen...
he's just mean!everytime he talks to me i feel like he seriously has sth against me...he jst dsnt wanna let me achieve anything...
i am talking abt da teacher we have in chemistry....uhhh!i got sick of it all bgd!
i hav ALOT to say abt him...but i wnt write it actually...cuz da words arent as bad as he is!
anyway thinking abt him jst brings to me all da other teachers that just have sth against me!
i jst faced ALL of them in da most 2 crucial years of my life!
how cud this all be true?jst dnt ask me!
anyway it seems like this post ended up being abt skool!yeah right!da controlling thing in my life right now...i jst dream of da day when i am goin finish it all and NEVER return to it again...abitur was my dream and i jst followed my dreams and joined it...noone warned me of wat was goin to happen next...well enough regrets...we're almost at da end of this journey...and i have faith in myself that i can make it thru!

A Walk 2 Remember....

I heared abt this film b4 i saw it alot...i didnt get the chance to see it in da cinema but then it statred to come in da T.V. ....Something like da first 3 times i watched da film i saw it only from da middle...i never knew that this was actually da film "a walk 2 remember"...when i saw it then all of it from da beginning till da end i cried more than anytime i watched it...wat if i was put in such situation?wat if a dear person to me jst died...?how wud i feel...
i started thinking abt it and things ended up with me writing this poem:


Tears falling from my eyes
Slowly crawling on my face till each and every one dies
Telling the story of my life
From the day I met you till you stabbed me with a knife
My heart cracks open
Telling me not to stay broken
Trying to convince me that you just got caught
Got caught by death and it wasn't your fault
I cut myself although I ain't dumb
I do it just to feel as I turned to be numb!
Since the day u left away
I can't feel what is happening around…the same happens every day
I sit wondering why you left me alone
We planned to stay together forever but then you were gone
I close my eyes and still I see you infront of me
I try to get out but still you are the only thing I can see
Every breath I take makes me feel you are still here
Every time I remember you I realize how much you were dear
And now my life is empty….. it's like hell
You are raising up high with you wings and I fell
I fell down on the ground after we shared our dream
Now I see the reality…that you are dead…and this is when I scream
After days I went running to your grave
This was the time when I felt I started to be brave
But then I saw your name written and I read the date
That's when I realized:" he's dead….my soulmate!"
That's when I went down on my knees
Wishing that you wud forgive me…please
Forgive me for each and every second I didn’t say I love you
I thought we'd have all the time to say it later..I thought we'll get through
I miss you in every single way
And I wish to get you back even for a single day
My tears are running down like wild
And soon I'll be turning blind
But I don’t care as I will always see
I will see you infront of me and feel again free
At last my tears finished telling the story
And now everything ended even the glory
At last I want to thank you dear
For every second you held me near.

My poems!

So i finally thought i shud upload one of my poems on my blog!
i started writing when i was first in 8te.klasse and it went on till now..(although i didnt write anything since a while actually)bas i thought i mite share with u some of my old and fav. poems....

No matter how many stars are filling da night
No matter how much they are shinning so bright
Only in ur eyes I c the perfect light
No matter how sad am I
No matter how much I wanna cry
I forget all that as I realize..u r my guy!
Cuz in ur eyes I can see my madness
Cuz in ur arms I can wash away my sadness
No greater gift was sent to me from up above
It was you baby with all da luv!
All the love I need all the love I wished for
Every single wish u granted 4 me and so much more
I remember walking hand in hand
I remember how I wrote ur name several times on da sand
All the memories that xsist in my head for real
Make me know how much ur xsistence lingers here
No matter how far u might be
In your calls you set me all again free
Through da warmness I feel in ur voice
Making me have no other choice
But to fall all over again in love with you
Knowing how much my dreams can cum true
I felt the softness of the flower
I felt the storm with its power
But still nothing could be compared with wat I feel
When I know that u r for real
Our love is something so right
So let's enjoy our luv without a single fight
But I don’t need to tell u this
Cuz u told me that your happiness lies in my bliss

Learned it da hard way...There IS comfort in da truth!

Well i have been writing abt nothing important on my blog lately...its jst dat nothing really attached me and made me think and want to write...life has been jst goin on in a way i am not used to...simply cuz i have no time to get connected to da "outside world"!...i know nothing beside wats goin on in skool and with my frnds..more than this...dont expect me to know anything!
but then jst a couple of mins ago i was having this conversation with nada...she had a personal msg on her account saying "there's no comfort in da truth"...and i was jst thinking abt that... let me jst copy paste this part of da conversation:

It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
well i believe there is comfort in da truth
Nada says:
no..the comfort is always in ur dreams and wishes
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
no...its better than to live in a world of ur dreams and hit to reality marra wa7da
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
to knw da truth of any situation is always da best
Nada says:
yea..a world of ur dreams is a comfortable world, bt it is always deceiving u
Nada says:
mayb bcoz u hit to reality marra wa7da..mayb that's y it's nt comfortable..
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
yeah thats why its always better to kw da truth
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
its at least a bit comforting than hittin back to it suddenly
Nada says:
u'r right of course..it stupid to rely on dreams akid..
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
yeah and beside dathow long can u live in a dream?
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
it will never be forever
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
da truth mite be hard but if u get ud to it u will be thankful dat u at least knw it
Nada says:
yea..u'r right..dreams shouldn't b a basic..bt without them one wdn't b able to have hope in life
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
yeah dats right i agree
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
a person shud have dreams but t live in them
Nada says:
and the smartest of us r those who try to make their lives look like their dreams..of course nt exactly..bt nearly
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
yeah
Nada says:
akid i dont mean live the dreams y3ni..i mean achieve their wishes in their dreams
It's REAL LOVE dat u donno abt says:
yeah i understand

So u see we both came to da same conclusion...da chat with nada jst reminded me of several ppl who insisted on hiding da truth from me...thinking it will be more comforting..and when it was hightime to reveal da truth...and i found everything out...i was devastated!!!!!
why cant some ppl not understand it is better to say da whole truth jst da time when it is supposed to be said?!
I learned it da hard way but i at least knw it now....it is always better to knw da truth then living jst in dreams that ppl faked for u!
so for da ppl who still didnt figure that out...plz try to be more honest and frank...it will prevent much more trouble!

Thanaweya Entlassungsfeier

I was happy to hear abt it at first...then the whole thing with formal clothes and such stuff made me not that excited...or even depressed(as some of my frnds knw how much i am an anti-formal-clothes gurl!...i jst feel more myself in a jeans and a top!)well then i found da perfect out fit right 5 min b4 i went to da skool...by that time i wasnt excited khales abt goin....but when i saw everyone...i was jst sooo happy!
i dont understand why herr Baab had to talk all that abt da problems it was jst a not ni da right time(but afterwards we talked with him and it was like its da "egyptian mentality" 2 4get everything in celebration times and he had to mention it in order to let da next genererations have a better chance...watsoever!)and then da guy from da embassy talked alot too and Frau dr. Hoda issa...and Herr mounir...well da shortest of all was his speech...
I LOVED da slideshow hoda did for dat event it was jst soo gud and i rly had alot of memories coming to my mind with all those pics...
when they all came on stage...i was soo happy they all passed and finished skool and i sumhow didnt believe that in less than a year..I will be da one who's standing up there!(isA isA isA ya3ni!)
It was jst gr8....i hope they all have a bright future and a gr8 life...cuz they deserve it!